fianlly exams is officially over..but it just did not end on a gd note..despite me tryin to act positive and being calm, that feeling of fear, negativity juz creep in n fill up the void within me..makes me tink of it often n scare the hell out of me..haiz..i really hopei ot the strength to face up to reality n the results next yr..for now, tinkin of it makes me tremble..how i wish i didnt take it n juz live life the way i wan..but in tis society, i believed u got to have sum qualifications to really have a decent life...

hols is here..i was feelin excited abt it but the feeling juz disappeared after a while..its juz like infatuation tat does not last long..now i really have no idea wad to do..really wan to have sum fun outside but my mind juz said no..its juz a different feelin afterall...

findin for job can be difficult huh...ahah..i neeed to work man..i dun wan to be cooped up at home..but tats wad i usually do..like wad ash said, autolock myself..ahha..it juz hit the nail on my head la..i do tat often..juz isolate myself n be myself..ahah..gdness tat souns so emo rite..ahah

oki tats all for today..for now, i m addicted to forensic heroes, on the first beat, cruel temptation n many more..will be back soon wid more behind the scenes of sabby's life....

ciaoz...(=

a levels!!! A levels....a levels...
tis is the battle tat i have to fight and defend myself from failing n cryin ove spilled milk..
1 week time n THIS IS IT!!
HMM...GOT TO BUCK UP NOW..I REALISED TAT I M DOIN SMTH LAST MIN. BUT I TINK I HAVE BEEN SITTING FOR LOTS OF EXAMS AND GOIN TO CLASSES TO STUDY..SO I SHLD BE DAMN PREPARED..
but sumtimes the feelings are juz like tat la...how to get rid of tis feeling...i tink tis is juz inside us ah...
oki tats all for now..
oh yes..sumtimes havin no news is a good news indeed...
n i m veri addicted to tis hindi song...You're the one...ahahha..(=

so its friday today n i realised tat time really passed veri fast ah..ahha..its like 2 more weeks to skol den will have to attend the graduation tea tingy den yes...a levels..oki i guess i m gonna be sentimental in today's post..

its like 3 yrs passed real fast n now i m sure my class has stronger bonds like how the magnets' opposites hold on to one another..i m glad n happy abt tat stronger bonds coz the first yr was so segregated for me..didnt like the place nor the ppl..felt tat i was really in a strange place with weird ppl who i tot i will never get along with...as time goes by, made frens and begun to trust one another..tats pretty cool.. i tink tis is the work of nature ah n its a phase in life tat everyone has to go thru..so i m happy tat i went thru n did grew up in tis place though i didnt grow in height or get prettier..but i tink i do have a sense of maturity rite..ahah...sum would object to tat ah..relax la...so now i guess after 3 yrs, everyone will go separate ways but towards the same destination, the university but different courses..its onli one mth to a levels and we got to jiayous n chiong lor.. though i may seems to be arrogant at the first look, i m not like tat le..i juz put tat arrogance as a shield la..so ppl will b scared to make fren wid me..ahha..i tink coz of tat i may not have lots of frens but i m actually oki wid it..noe y..coz i have lots of frens now n these frens are like the bestest gift i have got other than my family..thnx ah...

so now...wads up wid life now...hmm...tell u wat...im really into chinese n korean songs le..though i dun understand a single ting, i loved the tune...its quite soothin to a certain extent..i loved the feelings the singers have for the songs..it can indeed be felt la..its juz like how one appreciates art n i appreciate the music..now listenin to thses songs made me sleep n made me awake..i even bothered to find the meaning to it la..i liked to noe e meanings so i noe wads e song is really abt..quite cool le..now i m constantly listenin to Wo men de ai from FIR...power la..i tink the song is abt love n waiting ah..aha..needs sum ppl to translate pls..ahha..other than tat, sabira led to be addictive wid this hindi song..dun say alvida which means dun say gdbye...sumore the singer is my fav one la..my lover..oki enuf of me tokin abt my love in this..lets tok abt smth else..

ala i dun have much to say now lor..let me tink again den i edit my post k...see ya again...(=

hiyie..finally one load is being relieved from my shoulder..i guess tis will be written in all the art students diary huh...ahha..yups..ytd was the art coursework submission..was pretty bz wid the arrangement of boards to sweepin the gallery to make it clean...did a little of touch up here and there and its done...hmm..so wad shld i describe my day ytd?? hmm its a bz day but den quite realxing also..had geog paper 2 in te mornin...damn i shld have studied wad i spotted coz it did come out but ms sabby juz ignored it..nvm..i tried my very best..remind u tat its my prelim 2 and i cannot screwed it up...got my acc paper 1 results..its a gd ting and a big relief tat i passed..was so happy coz i didnt do tat well for prelim 1..but tis time my luck changes for the better..ahah...hope to do well for acc..but geog got problem la..i wonder y i didnt complete both papers..n tis is freakin me out la..haiz...but the paper is easier than prelim 1 la..i tink so..ahahha...

den cums to art..neither happy or proud of it..i found it so irritatin coz all my ideas were not approved by teacher last min n i felt like a bloody guinea pig..when ms koh asked me whether i liked with e end product, i nearly cried coz tis is not wad i wan..but i cannot blame the teachers..i dun have the skills nor the talents to do well like others..i got myself to blame though..tis made me so sad tat i was sawyed by emotions n got real peng..i tink for sum, they can know tat i was not tat happy but i tried to keep myself calm..for wad get angry after all is done..no use crying over spilled milk rite..so yeah, tats abt art and its done..letf wid sova..got to well for it so could get an A..will try my best la..insyaallah...

oh ya..my taiwanese drama goona end soon..pretty happy and sad abt it coz could not c them anymore but then i m happy coz i get to study for A levels la..ahha..there's still mysoju sabby..ahahha...ytd was really touched by this hongkong drama coz this alfred died while telling his ex sum arguments to let her win the case...wth..veri sad le..my heart broke to c the love..ahaha..

oki den..sabby had to go now to study la..tata.....i m in love wid chinese songs...ms koh so nice la..she gave me the cd la...thank u...(= oh yes...i got a wish boz from grace..i intend to write all my wishes in it..ahha..juz like chen xinyi...ahaha...lame ah..tats me...emo nemo...(=